day 11: 

run in with my ex in tulum.

i had to put the photo of the 3 of us because i have deleted all of the couples photos.

i actually had no bad feelings—just a bit of sadness because he did not seem so happy in his new life.

i realize: he was very, very good to me in many ways. took very good care of me. adored and cherished me. gave me so much affection.  but being in a very different kind of relationship filled with a very deep and passionate love, i realize how important mutuality is. the deeper soul connection was never there. the friendship was always there and is still there. i could sadly feel how much i hurt him. but the karma definitely feels finished.