Day 36: Shiva!

Oracle: Losing second pair of chappals in one week. Clearly I need to be standing on new ground.

Confession: I must have gone to hell and back in my mind at least a thousand times yesterday. Attachment-detachment—attachment—detachment—-trying to awaken the inner Shiva. This has been the purpose of this trip. 

Sacrifice: Was supposed to be food but I ended up eating a grilled cheese and chocolate instead of fasting. But I did hold vigil until 5am.

Relinquish: Chappals, insecurity and the top to my thermos. 

Structure:

Overslept: 8 am

830-930 am: Express yoga and meditation

930 am: coffee 

10am: Shiva Puja

12pm: coconut break

1230-230: writing

230: swimming

330pm: pig out on grilled cheese and chocolate

4-5pm: work

5pm: beach meditation with Amma (she never appeared)

630pm: bhajans

730: Shiva Puja

10pm: wandered around the ashram with Sam 

12am: The vision of Lord Shiva!

Amma came out for Shivaratri: played a drum, sang bhajans and passed us prasad with her own hands.

1-4am: chanted the 1000 names in the Temple

430 am: Shiva-Shakti

Was told I snored like a demon last night—must have entered some crazy astral realms of Lord Shiva or Kali…

5-10 am: sleep