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Day 38: 

Transformation

One of the most life-altering darshans with Amma. Everything is about to change. I could feel it the moment I sat in the chair in the line. Deep jewel tones of feeling—rubies, emeralds—love, life and death all passed as soul stirring images in the core of my third eye. I asked her about my future and Her response— which I kind of already knew in my heart but was fighting and doubting—- was confirmed in a way that has me in a state of shock, humble gratitude, beauty and even some terror.

I did not sleep last night. I had so much Shakti running through me, it was all I could do to sit still and not want to run around the ashram like a lunatic. 

Oracle: my missing chappals that disappeared right after my last darshan,  magically appeared as I was about to go see Amma for stage time in the morning. “The Return”

Structure:

Woke up at 530am

Chanting in Kali Temple 630-730

Sadhana 730-930am

Polarity Therapy Seva Session: 930-1030

1030: Breakfast

Omelet Sandwich and half a Pancake shared with Pisces Moon sister Leena.

1130: Chanting on stage with Amma

1pm: Work

130pm: Lunch with Yogini and SSG

230: Cashew Icecream/Milkshake experiment with Yogini

330: Hung out in the flat with SSG

5pm: Coconut Break

6pm: Shiva-Shakti Puja

7pm: Ghee Rost Break—blissful eating and listening to bhajans.

830: Life-changing darshan

930pm: Chapatti chat with Yogini

10pm: Insomnia

Lessons: Stop Doubting. Be Patient. Have Faith. Nothing Stays the Same.