on day 4 (4 is the number of integration and bringing something difficult into consciousness). I have to forgive myself and stop buying into this BS that I cannot communicate well. 

I had this memory of getting back my first school paper with big red constructive criticism written all over it and instantly falling into a state of total despair. I felt stupid, worthless and terrified to ever put another thought down on paper again. The teacher was simply a reflection of my own inner critical animus. This happened again with the first paper I wrote in college that did not receive a perfect mark. I walked out of that classroom totally possessed by the animus and convinced that I hardly deserved to live if I was that stupid. That is how powerful this inner devil can be. I have had several clients share similar stories with me that stop them from creating, writing, expressing and simply forgiving themselves for not being perfect. This is why we must wrestle with this bastard on a daily basis. 

As Ann says we must develop a ruthlessness: —a fierce desire to live——to honor this untamed energy, backed by instinct, which initially shows no concern for results to self or other, but which can transform its destructive potential…