Day 36: Shiva!
Oracle: Losing second pair of chappals in one week. Clearly I need to be standing on new ground.
Confession: I must have gone to hell and back in my mind at least a thousand times yesterday. Attachment-detachment—attachment—detachment—-trying to awaken the inner Shiva. This has been the purpose of this trip.
Sacrifice: Was supposed to be food but I ended up eating a grilled cheese and chocolate instead of fasting. But I did hold vigil until 5am.
Relinquish: Chappals, insecurity and the top to my thermos.
Structure:
Overslept: 8 am
830-930 am: Express yoga and meditation
930 am: coffee
10am: Shiva Puja
12pm: coconut break
1230-230: writing
230: swimming
330pm: pig out on grilled cheese and chocolate
4-5pm: work
5pm: beach meditation with Amma (she never appeared)
630pm: bhajans
730: Shiva Puja
10pm: wandered around the ashram with Sam
12am: The vision of Lord Shiva!
Amma came out for Shivaratri: played a drum, sang bhajans and passed us prasad with her own hands.
1-4am: chanted the 1000 names in the Temple
430 am: Shiva-Shakti
Was told I snored like a demon last night—must have entered some crazy astral realms of Lord Shiva or Kali…
5-10 am: sleep
