Day 32: Thursday

The return of hunger.

I could not stop eating yesterday:

toast, potatoes, rice, vegetables, coconut water, milk shakes, chocolate cake, dosas, bondas (fried indian snacks), fried this, greasy that….after having like no appetite for weeks, suddenly I was a raging eating machine to the point that know I am on Cipro for a horrible stomach bug—-I was probably eating for the bug too and that’s why I was so hungry.

Oracle: Two beautiful birds with white strips on their wings and yellow feet—during morning coffee while Sam was sharing his story about his beautiful darshan with Amma the night before.

Spent most of the day discussing relationship theory and Vedic Astrology with my roommate: Sam. Amma put us together to learn about the Supreme Reality vs. the delusion of romantic relationships. Powerful lessons about not getting attached or falling in love. It’s about awakening my own masculinity—my inner Shiva. 

Day 33: The Crash

After running on only 4 hours of sleep every night—my body decided to finally call it quits. Woke up immobile and so sick. Spent the day drinking coconuts and trying to get from A to B. 

Oracle: 

Had a dream that my roommate become enamored with a new girl. 

Confession: I got a little jealous when I saw my roommate into this new girl and then he introduced me as his “friend Vismaya”

These lyrics really helped to get over such a petty feeling as jealousy and put it into perspective:

“Come O Mother Ambika, Who are the Enchantress of the mind. Give me, Thy Vision. Then vain pride, possessiveness, bashfulness and affliction will be relinquished. 

Relinquish: all of the above!!

But the beach meditation with Amma was as beautiful as always:

The discussion was again how we must be like a bird on a twig that could break at any moment—the bird can enjoy the view, sing a song but he must also realize that at any moment the branch could totally break…

this is how it is with worldly attachments… they bring us some comfort and happiness for some time but we must realize they could break or blow up in our face at any moment and  seek the true refuge within.

And Bhajans:

Breaking the bonds of desire, I will reach the far shore of eternal peace. Then all forms of foes in the form of desires will vanish and all sorrows and miseries will disappear

Day 32: Thursday

The return of hunger.

I could not stop eating yesterday:

toast, potatoes, rice, vegetables, coconut water, milk shakes, chocolate cake, dosas, bondas (fried indian snacks), fried this, greasy that….after having like no appetite for weeks, suddenly I was a raging eating machine to the point that know I am on Cipro for a horrible stomach bug—-I was probably eating for the bug too and that’s why I was so hungry.

Oracle: Two beautiful birds with white strips on their wings and yellow feet—during morning coffee while Sam was sharing his story about his beautiful darshan with Amma the night before.

Spent most of the day discussing relationship theory and Vedic Astrology with my roommate: Sam. Amma put us together to learn about the Supreme Reality vs. the delusion of romantic relationships. Powerful lessons about not getting attached or falling in love. It’s about awakening my own masculinity—my inner Shiva. 

Day 33: The Crash

After running on only 4 hours of sleep every night—my body decided to finally call it quits. Woke up immobile and so sick. Spent the day drinking coconuts and trying to get from A to B. 

Oracle: 

Had a dream that my roommate become enamored with a new girl. 

Confession: I got a little jealous when I saw my roommate into this new girl and then he introduced me as his “friend Vismaya”

These lyrics really helped to get over such a petty feeling as jealousy and put it into perspective:

“Come O Mother Ambika, Who are the Enchantress of the mind. Give me, Thy Vision. Then vain pride, possessiveness, bashfulness and affliction will be relinquished. 

Relinquish: all of the above!!

But the beach meditation with Amma was as beautiful as always:

The discussion was again how we must be like a bird on a twig that could break at any moment—the bird can enjoy the view, sing a song but he must also realize that at any moment the branch could totally break…

this is how it is with worldly attachments… they bring us some comfort and happiness for some time but we must realize they could break or blow up in our face at any moment and  seek the true refuge within.

And Bhajans:

Breaking the bonds of desire, I will reach the far shore of eternal peace. Then all forms of foes in the form of desires will vanish and all sorrows and miseries will disappear

Day 33: The Crash

After running on only 4 hours of sleep every night—my body decided to finally call it quits. Woke up immobile and so sick. Spent the day drinking coconuts and trying to get from A to B. 

Oracle: 

Had a dream that my roommate become enamored with a new girl. 

Confession: I got a little jealous when I saw my roommate into this new girl and then he introduced me as his “friend Vismaya”

These lyrics really helped to get over such a petty feeling as jealousy and put it into perspective:

“Come O Mother Ambika, Who are the Enchantress of the mind. Give me, Thy Vision. Then vain pride, possessiveness, bashfulness and affliction will be relinquished. 

Relinquish: all of the above!!

But the beach meditation with Amma was as beautiful as always:

The discussion was again how we must be like a bird on a twig that could break at any moment—the bird can enjoy the view, sing a song but he must also realize that at any moment the branch could totally break…

this is how it is with worldly attachments… they bring us some comfort and happiness for some time but we must realize they could break or blow up in our face at any moment and  seek the true refuge within.

And Bhajans:

Breaking the bonds of desire, I will reach the far shore of eternal peace. Then all forms of foes in the form of desires will vanish and all sorrows and miseries will disappear